Ego∞Soul
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"As within, so without", the outside world is a reflection of our inner world. This is a Universal Truth or Law that governs us.
I see this as so empowering, we don't have to feel powerless or a victim of the world around us. We create our reality! Our minds and bodies are powerful. And with power, comes responsibility. We are responsible for our thoughts and actions. Fearless CounSouling can help you harness this power through taking responsibility, to create the life you want. You may be like me and wonder about why we are the way we are, how we arrived at our personality and our way of being in this world. You may also now be wondering what is Ego and what is Soul? who are we really? and what is this life all about? This curiosity is probably what brought you to this page and it's the perfect opening for a huge shift in your being! |
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I like to understand the inner workings of things. I now understand that's how I connect, feel secure, and trust. Doing this is my Enneagram 3 returning to its type 6 origins, or my growth point. This is how I became a therapist, and now a CounSouler. I noticed, became curious, leaned in, explored, and discovered. That is the path of Fearless CounSouling.
I often laugh and say therapy is a gateway treatment to the "woo" and being a therapist is a gateway career to becoming "woo woo", if you're open. The more I study the practices that interest me, the more I read stories of therapists turned spiritualist. Looking inward and exploring the psyche is a portal in to the Universe!
All humans are spiritual beings, whether we embrace it or not. And it's ok if we don't. We have free will and choice in this lifetime to do what feels right for us. Many of us lack this awareness. Coming to this awareness creates an opening that can send us spiraling into the depths of our Soul and into the wonders of Creation, the Universe, the Beyond. It's a wild ride full of ups and downs, ins and outs, highs and lows, lost and founds. You may already be on that journey or searching for the opening. Or, you may not know what all this is about, this is the first you are hearing of it, and now are not sure whether to run, attack, or continue forward. Either way, you can't unsee this. This is an invitation. Welcome.
All humans are spiritual beings, whether we embrace it or not. And it's ok if we don't. We have free will and choice in this lifetime to do what feels right for us. Many of us lack this awareness. Coming to this awareness creates an opening that can send us spiraling into the depths of our Soul and into the wonders of Creation, the Universe, the Beyond. It's a wild ride full of ups and downs, ins and outs, highs and lows, lost and founds. You may already be on that journey or searching for the opening. Or, you may not know what all this is about, this is the first you are hearing of it, and now are not sure whether to run, attack, or continue forward. Either way, you can't unsee this. This is an invitation. Welcome.
Disclaimer about this work
There is a saying, "milk for babes; meat for strong men" that translates to this work. Take it in as you are ready. Feeding steak to a newborn baby does not make sense, they are not equipped to chew or digest it. Bite off what you can chew and digest. If it's too big, too much, or doesn't sit well with you, you're not ready and that's ok. Take what resonates with you and leave the rest. And when you're ready, step into the next.
Ego & Soul
The terms Ego and Soul are often used without definition or description. I feel it necessary to provide context for what I mean when I use these terms.
My understanding is when we're born, Ego and Soul are aligned with one another. Governed by another Universal Truth/Law - the Law of Attraction, they are a vibrational match for the family/circumstance they have been born into. I understand this to be because our Soul intentionally chooses to incarnate into this particular environment to have a certain set of experiences that contribute to its development. The Soul incarnates with Spiritual Goals, Talents, and Karma as well as Physical Goals, Talents, and Karma. The Soul also has an overall Destiny it hopes to achieve. Additionally, the Soul may have made contracts with others to support its intentions for this lifetime. This information can be determined through Numerology, Astrology, Human Design, and the Akashic Records. Accomplishing these intentions requires Ego, as Ego is the way the Soul crystalizes and partakes in the human experience.
My understanding is when we're born, Ego and Soul are aligned with one another. Governed by another Universal Truth/Law - the Law of Attraction, they are a vibrational match for the family/circumstance they have been born into. I understand this to be because our Soul intentionally chooses to incarnate into this particular environment to have a certain set of experiences that contribute to its development. The Soul incarnates with Spiritual Goals, Talents, and Karma as well as Physical Goals, Talents, and Karma. The Soul also has an overall Destiny it hopes to achieve. Additionally, the Soul may have made contracts with others to support its intentions for this lifetime. This information can be determined through Numerology, Astrology, Human Design, and the Akashic Records. Accomplishing these intentions requires Ego, as Ego is the way the Soul crystalizes and partakes in the human experience.
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Everything is energy and energy has a vibration, an energetic signature, which I call an impression. Our physical body and the physical elements in this world consist of such a dense vibration that it results in a tangible, touchable impression. Alternatively, our thoughts and emotions are intangible, or not able to be physically held, because they are made up of less dense energy. You may have heard the terms "high vibration" and "low vibration" referring to a sense of lightness, feeling high, and heaviness, feeling low, respectively. All of these energy signatures influence our energetic impressions on our bodies and the world around us, however people often only consider, or more greatly consider the impact of the dense, physical impressions we make on ourselves, each other, and the world. The truth is, it all matters and is all connected.
Our unique experience as our Self is the Universe experiencing itself. We are a universe with the Universe. I hope this inspires and excites you, like the wonders of the vast night sky giving us a glimpse into the great Beyond. You are powerful. I highly encourage you to embrace the possibilities. |
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A letter to Ego from Soul
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I find that the term "Ego" is often misunderstood and considered a bad thing. In some spiritual literature "Ego death" is considered an important goal for enlightenment. Here is my interpretation from my studies and experiences: Soul incarnating as a human is on a hero's journey. This is the classic tale of departure from home, initiation through adventure, lessons, and victories, and then the return home having been transformed. This mirrors our experience as children leaving home and being adults finding our way through life, as well as our Soul's departure from the home of the collective Universe, having this human experience. In the case of Ego and Soul, our Ego leaves Soul to experience life seemingly disconnected from Soul's love and guidance. Ego finds life to be fun, challenging, and even scary at times. It adapts to its lived experiences, doing its best to protect us while also helping us feel fulfilled. Unfortunately, Ego alone cannot create a fulfilling experience. In this awareness, Ego returns home, reunites with Soul, and they become united in supporting us in moving through the rest of our lives. This is what is possible through a spiritual awakening - we realize we are so much more than the personality we have been portraying for most of our lives and existence is beyond our ability to conceptualize in our human experience. In this awareness we begin to develop trust in our Soul and its connection to the Divine/Universe/Creation/God-dess. Ego has not done anything wrong by venturing out and navigating life for us. I believe this is all a part of the process, the divine design of this human experience. Ego, having left home to have adventure, challenges, lessons, and victories, returns home to Soul transformed. Its a beautiful journey!
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If you are interested, I've written a letter to my Ego from my Soul in the International Bestseller, I'm So Glad You Left Me. It can help you further understand the special relationship between Ego and Soul, from Soul's perspective. I'd love to hear what you think about it, feel free to reach out and share!
Putting it all together
You may be wondering how this intersects with the services I offer. The work I do begins with a variety of readings that reveal the maps of your Soul's intentions for you in this lifetime. Numerology, Human Design, Astrology, the Enneagram, and the Akashic Records all provide unique and detailed information about your journey. This is all calculated by understanding energy and how your Soul embedded energetic markers to support you, Ego and Soul, in having a certain experience. Your name, date, time and place of birth, as well as any name changes you've had were all planned to provide energetic markers for your trajectory. Your personality was planned and the individuation of Ego from Soul was all a part of the process. The readings I provide can help you see all. We are all unique and everyone's chart is different. It's incredible how accurate this information is. I find it truly magical and it makes me feel so secure to be held by these tools, knowing they were there waiting to be discovered, holding me from the moment my Soul agreed to this incarnation.
Based on the information from your readings, I provide life, relationship, and spiritual coaching to help you integrate what you learned/rediscovered about yourself into your life. This can be a challenging process, that involves undoing a lot of conditioning from your lived experiences. The energy work I do can help ease that process by clearing blocks and restrictions to your energy flow within and in your connection to the Universe. I like to use Tarot throughout this process as an ancient and timeless tool to reflect subconscious drives and limitations. It helps me better understand where to direct the energetic work for optimum release and flow.
Based on the information from your readings, I provide life, relationship, and spiritual coaching to help you integrate what you learned/rediscovered about yourself into your life. This can be a challenging process, that involves undoing a lot of conditioning from your lived experiences. The energy work I do can help ease that process by clearing blocks and restrictions to your energy flow within and in your connection to the Universe. I like to use Tarot throughout this process as an ancient and timeless tool to reflect subconscious drives and limitations. It helps me better understand where to direct the energetic work for optimum release and flow.
Frozen
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Show Yourself
Song by Evan Rachel Wood and Idina Menzel Every inch of me is trembling But not from the cold Something is familiar Like a dream I can reach but not quite hold I can sense you there Like a friend I've always known I'm arriving And it feels like I am home I have always been a fortress Cold secrets deep inside You have secrets, too But you don't have to hide Show yourself I'm dying to meet you Show yourself It's your turn Are you the one I've been looking for All of my life? Show yourself I'm ready to learn Ah-ah, ah-ah Ah-ah, ah-ah-ah I've never felt so certain All my life I've been torn But I'm here for a reason Could it be the reason I was born? I have always been so different Normal rules did not apply Is this the day? Are you the way I finally find out why? Show yourself I'm no longer trembling Here I am I've come so far You are the answer I've waited for All of my life Oh, show yourself Let me see who you are Come to me now Open your door Don't make me wait One moment more Oh, come to me now Open your door Don't make me wait One moment more Where the north wind meets the sea Ah-ah, ah-ah There's a river Ah-ah, ah-ah Full of memory Come, my darling, homeward bound I am found Show yourself Step into your power Grow yourself Into something new You are the one you've been waiting for All of my life All of your life Oh, show yourself Ah-ah, ah-ah (ah-ah, ah-ah) Ah-ah, ah-ah (ah-ah, ah-ah) Ah-ah, ah-ah Source: LyricFind Songwriters: Kristen Anderson-Lopez / Robert Lopez Show Yourself lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid, Walt Disney Music Company |
Elsa in the Disney Frozen I and II movies is a great example of this process of Ego ∞ Soul. In the first Frozen movie, Elsa is shown innocently playing with her little sister, Anna, using her innate powers to entertain them, which eventually leads to an accident that causes a life threatening injury to Anna. As a result, Elsa locks-up or freezes all of her powers and isolates herself, afraid she will cause more harm. Later in the first movie, Elsa emerges from her isolation after the loss of her and Anna's parents. This new trauma provides an opportunity for Elsa to heal with Anna, but instead she is re-traumatized when she accidentally freezes the whole village. Again, Elsa isolates, this time in an ice castle on the top of a mountain. Anna, having no memory of the original trauma, pursues Elsa, eventually leading to Elsa coming home and them finding some stability together again.
The first movie captures Elsa's personality, Ego, being forced into a false self, someone without magical powers, due to the injury it caused for her sister and because it scared her parents. Most of us have at least one, but probably several moments, of innocence, being our true selves, causing what we perceived as harm or trouble for someone else, then locking away that aspect of ourself for protection. This is the Shadow you may have heard about. Our Shadow parts are essentially exiled aspects of our personality that are removed from our consciousness to shield us, and others, from being harmed by it. These parts don't really go away. They are present and do seep out, often unexpectedly. When they do, they are met with protective parts called managers, who then try to put them back in their place and smooth over our image to realign with our false self. If needed, an even more powerful and drastic protector, called a firefighter, will come and address the situation in a more drastic way to make sure the exiled part is extinguished. These terms, exile, manager, and firefighter, are from a type of coaching I'm trained in called IFS, or Internal Family Systems. This approach truly understands the psyche and supports addressing all of its aspects, including the true Self, which I consider the Soul. IFS provides a wonderful model for accessing Self, or Soul, energy to unburden protective and exiled parts. It is a beautiful, thorough, and lasting resource for almost any issue. I've been using it since 2016 and have seen wonderful results. We can include this practice in your coaching sessions when needed. At the end of the first Frozen movie, Elsa's shadow part is allowed to remerge and be active in her life by helping her snowman friend Olaf to be wintered all year around so that he does not melt, as well as create ice sculptures and other fun things for the village. There is still the mystery of why does Elsa have this power, while others do not. This is addressed in the second movie. In the sequel, you'll find that her experience in Frozen I was a primer to her real healing, a return to her true Self. Frozen II starts with Elsa content as queen in the castle with her sister Anna, and their friends Kristoff, Sven, and Olaf. However, she starts to hear something calling her. At first, her protective Ego, having gone through what its already experienced in Frozen I, refuses to acknowledge and answer the call. In the song, Into the Unknown, Elsa calls it a "secret siren" because her Ego thinks it's leading her into danger. She says, "I've had my adventure, I don't need something new I'm afraid of what I'm risking if I follow you", which is Ego resisting the becoming of her Soul. She's at the beginnings of a spiritual awakening. Later in the song she says, "What do you want? 'Cause you've been keeping me awake. Are you here to distract me so I make a big mistake?" This is her fearful Ego concerned of what will happen if it reconnects with Soul and discovers who Elsa really is. The song then goes on with, "Or are you someone out there who's a little bit like me? Who knows deep down I'm not where I'm meant to be? Every day's a little harder, as I feel my power grow. Don't you know there's part of me that longs to go... Into the unknown." This is her Ego softening and entertaining the possibility of a reunion with Soul. |